Hey, Motivation! Where Did You Go?

I wanted to write a blog to share my lack of motivation and discipline within my weight loss journey, but I didn't know where to start. Until I came across this:

It then seemed to all make sense! I can find the motivation, every time for anything, but to keep it, and make the changes a habit is the true issue!

I sat here for a minute and tried to find a time that I had motivation to do something, did it, and stuck to it. The only thing I could think of was my commitment to being sober. This realization brought happiness and pride but also disappointment. In 28 years, that's the only thing?! And I only found that motivation six months ago!

I can come up with a ton of reasons (excuses) to why I have lost motivation and quit each situation. Currently, I am explaining to myself that due to the stress of the last few weeks with my dog (she was very ill), I have just been distracted and fallen off the wagon. However, she is better now, and what did I have last night for dinner? Nation's! And what did I have for dinner two nights before that? Pizza! So, what is my excuse then? There are other reasons (excuses) to why I am frustrated with Weight Watchers and those are based on my dietary choices. I am a vegetarian and I do believe you have more variety within this program if you consume animal products (the only one I still consume is dairy; and I am trying to limited that). Things I used to cook at home, on a regular basis, consisted of items that are very high points (rice and bean burritos, pasta, etc.) and now I need to stray from my normal weekly menu to make sure I am following program. Of course I know I can eat all those things still on Weight Watchers and just bulk it up with more vegetables but, at that point, I feel like I am on a "diet" and isn't that what Weight Watchers prides themselves not to be?!

If I was asked, right now, if I wanted to quit Weight Watchers and just say, "screw it", I would say, "no way!". But if I am not sticking to the plan then why do I want to stay? And how can I go about getting my motivation back and making healthy choices and weight loss a habit? I guess that is the million dollar question...

Until next time...